Influencer Jen Hamilton is opening up about the pain of her ongoing divorce from estranged husband Brian Hamilton and why the experience reminds her of childbirth.
“It feels like labor,” Jen said of her split in a video titled “Separation Vlog” shared via TikTok on Saturday, June 20. “You’ll be OK for a minute and here comes a contraction! And another thing about this and labor is I don’t know when it’s going to end.”
Hamilton, who confirmed her and Brian’s marriage was over on Tuesday, June 16, then showed off her chickens while filming in her chicken coop — a way, she said, to feel a sense of normalcy amid her divorce.
“People are like, ‘Jen, it’s OK to take a break.’ This is the only thing that feels like routine to me right now — just telling you whatever random thought pops into my head,” she said. “Which sometimes get me in trouble, I know.”
She continued, “But I also want to be able to document where I was and where I go and where I am. The thing that is annoying me right now — that I know it shouldn’t be annoying to me, but I wish that I had something stable to count on — is the labileness of my feelings right now. Because I can wake feeling OK and, like, do stuff and get stuff done and feel like a boss and then somebody mentions something and I’m just a puddle on the floor.”
@_jen_hamilton_ Separation vlog
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The Birth Vibes author sparked instant speculation her marriage was ending after she shared a viral video of herself crying. Later, when confirming her and Brian’s split, the social media star gave her fans a statement and admitted she was embarrassed she shared a video of herself in tears.
“I’m feeling embarrassed and feeling exposed and feeling sad, feeling every single thing you probably possibly feel,” she said at the time. “My publicists say that I should make a statement ‘when I’m ready.’ There is no being ready. But there’s already been a bunch of articles about it, so I might as well just rip the Band-Aid off and put it out there in the wind.”
She continued later in the announcement video: “I am very embarrassed that I put a video of myself crying on the internet and I never should have done that. It was a moment of searing pain. And I just wanted somebody to tell me I was gonna be alright. There is no part of me that thinks that I am famous enough to end up in People magazine or the New York Post for something going on in my life. And that was dumb of me… because that is exactly what happened, and now in the midst of, like, the real-time pain that I feel, I’m having to deal with that part of it all.”
On Saturday, Jen thanks the people who have been in her corner as she continues to navigate her divorce, revealing that she has also been in contact with her estranged husband.
“My sweet mom brought over pancakes and is folding my laundry right now, which is very, very sweet,” she said. “I have such good people around me. I talked to [Brian] this morning and he’s healing and doing well.”
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