Lily Allen admitted she is “spiraling” as rumors swirl about her and David Harbour getting a divorce.
“I’m finding it hard to be interested in anything. I’m really not in a good place,” the “Smile” singer told her co-host, Miquita Oliver, in Thursday’s episode of their “Miss Me?” podcast.
“I know I’ve been talking about it for months, but I’ve been spiraling and spiraling,” she continued. “It’s got out of control. I’ve tried.”
Allen, 39, recalled having to leave a Christmas lunch early last month because she was having a panic attack.
“And then I went to see something at the theater the other night with my friends, and I had to leave at halftime,” she shared.
The Grammy nominee confessed she is unable to concentrate on anything “except the pain” she is currently going through.
“It’s really hard,” she said.
Allen, who is sober after struggling with drug and alcohol addiction, then told fans that she would be taking a break from her podcast to take care of her mental health.
“I’m going away next week for a few weeks, listeners. But I do want to reassure people — because there will be speculation because of the amount of time I’m going to be taking away that I’m going to drug rehab — I’ve not relapsed,” she asserted.
The “F–k You” singer went on to deny another internet rumor she recently came across.
“I have seen some horrible blind items on the internet that I was found in a crack den by my husband being surrounded by men. I don’t know who is spreading these vicious rumors, but it’s not true,” she said, notably mentioning Harbour without addressing speculation that they are on the rocks.
Allen even went so far as to say she blames cellphones for her distress.
“It all comes back to the phones. They aren’t doing us any good. They certainly aren’t doing me any good at the moment. I really don’t like my phone,” she said. “I’m as guilty of that as anyone else. What I’m very excited about where I’m going over the next few weeks is that I’m not allowed my phone.”
Despite her struggles, the English pop star said she has found solace in her two daughters, Ethel, 13, and Marnie, 12, whom she shares with her ex-husband, Sam Cooper, to whom she was married from 2011 to 2018.
“They are always there, and you have to be present and there for them,” she said. “And that’s OK. When things in life are going well and you’re coping, it’s really nice to have the kids around. They’re a joy to be around.”
Allen added that having children is “one of the main sources of joy in one’s life.”
“But when things are not going so well and life is tough, as it is for many people for all manner of reasons, having to hold things together is really hard,” she said.
Oliver asked her co-host whether parenting has become easier now that her kids are older, to which Allen replied, “Yeah. We are a support network for each other and encourage each other to talk about our feelings, but I think the main thing is telling them we’re going to get through it and be fine.”
Elsewhere in the episode, the “Fear” songstress fueled breakup rumors while reflecting on the significance of visiting Kenya.
“I’d been on holiday with my husband, David, in India,” she told Oliver, awkwardly pausing and barely being able to spit out the label. “And on the way back from there, I came to see you.”
Gossip that Allen and the “Stranger Things” star, 49, have separated began swirling last week after reports surfaced that she had caught him using the celebrity dating app Raya when she made her own profile and discovered he was active.
“Lily was looking for women that were on Raya and cross-referencing them with women David follows on Instagram to try to figure out who he was seeing,” a friend of Allen’s told the Daily Mail.
The app happens to be how Allen and Harbour met in 2019. A year later, they tied the knot in Las Vegas.
Reps for Allen and Harbour did not immediately respond to Page Six’s request for comment.
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