Cat Marnell, once among the city’s finest wasted writers, is two-years sober. (Making her, er, just among the city’s finest writers).
Marnell wrote the beloved “How To Murder Your Life” memoir in 2017 about her attempts to balance a demanding life as a fashion and beauty journalist with a flourishing drug addiction.
The XOJane star got clean in 2022, and just celebrated her two-year anniversary.
She wrote a Dharmic column about it on her Substack, BeautyShambles.
“Sobriety just feels like…Nothing. I wake up in the morning and it’s Nothing. I leave the house and walk to my intended destination feeling Nothing,” she wrote, “I sit down to do my work and I get it done, like it’s Nothing. I eat three meals a day and it’s Nothing. It’s emptier than the shelves I keep clearing, because I feel like stuff is closing in on me.It’s just…Nothing.”
She said she celebrated two years on November 28.
“Needless to say, my sense of Nothingness is peaking. It’s not only the absence of a handicap, which in and of itself an enormous privilege. Nothing is luxurious. And Nothing is meditative,” she wrote, “In Buddhism, the concept of nothingness is known as śūnyatā, a Sanskrit word that can also be translated as ’emptiness’, ‘vacuity’, or ‘voidness’. I don’t pretend to read Bhuddist teachings in any real way… but I can tell you this: I feel as empty as my mailbox that I check every day for IRS correspondence and mortgage forms. And I like it.”
Marnell tells us she’s been “writing an autobiographical novel about my deranged and sexy thirties.”
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